Most days, I know that I will be lucky to get little flickers or glimpses of my sweet Daddy, yesterday was wonderfully different! When we were about to leave, I walked next to him and told him that I was about to go home. He asked when I would be able to come back. I told him that I would come back today, he smiled and said "Okay". I leaned forward and kissed his cheek, as I did, he turned his face and kissed my cheek at the same time!!!! I said "I love you Daddy" and he looked at me and said "I love you too shugga, y'all be careful now". I wanted to cry tears of joy!!! As I was walking away he said, "I love you Baby". He understood what he was saying, and he understood what I said!!!!! It was brief, a few moments of clarity, much more than we usually get.
I was thrilled beyond words!!! I was a little heart sickened, because I asked God if Daddy could tell me he loved me, understand what it meant, smile and understand that I love him too before he leaves us. Is this the last time I will hear it? Is the time to leave us near? My head understands the situation, and it tries to talk to my heart and tell it all of those things. My heart does not always agree to see things the same way.
The short ride home, my mind replayed the incident over and over, trying to hold on to every second in my memory. If this was the last time, I want it recorded, so that I can look back at a happy memory. If it is not the last time, then it will remain a happy memory for me. My heart is afraid that it is the last time I will hear those words, but my heart feels that way each time that he says it to me. Life is precious and short, even if our loved ones are not sick, the time we spend with them should be treated as if it is special. After all, those exact moments will never happen again.