We are not the first family to lose a loved one during the Christmas season or in the past year. My heart aches for each family that grieves. We each grieve in our own way, and have our reasons for our feelings. I sit in judgment of no one.
That loss forces me to take a closer look at the reality of my situation, and to remember some important lessons that I have been taught by my parents. There are many “no mores” that we will face. Christmas Day brunch was a big deal in my family. Daddy helped Mama get ready for that special event, he made the sausage balls. That is a “no more” for me. There are “no mores” for Daddy too. No more confusion, no more suffering, and no more Alzheimer’s. There is joy in those “no mores”.
Christmas is the time we celebrate the greatest gift given to us. Daddy realized the value of God’s gift. That is where my joy is this Christmas. Because of this undeserved gift, my future is different, and I hope that yours is too! While I was not able to look into Daddy’s heart and see all of his feelings, I did see the example he set for us, remember the lessons he taught us and the things he told us. My joy is in the realization of God’s gift first and foremost. Knowing where Daddy is, and one day we will see him again is just another reason to feel Christmas joy. My joy is one less victory for the Alzheimer’s Grinch. He has stolen enough and I refuse to give the demon this victory.
There are fewer Christmas decorations in our home this year; shopping and baking have not been done. Time has not allowed these things to be accomplished. There will be little of either. Kevin and I agree that those things are nice, but not a requirement for our joy.
There will be no more sausage balls made by Daddy, but there is no more suffering for Daddy. He has the best “no mores”; he also has His Christmas Joy this year!
Merry Christmas to each one of you! Wishing that you each find your Christmas Joy and the realization of God’s greatest gift is a reality for you. May your “no mores” become precious memories and a reminder of your future.