This year Christmas was different for me. It was not something that I have ever experienced before. But I learned some things.
There are people that care about me, and my family. I never took the time to think about it or question it, but I found out there are. They reached out to us in many ways.
We had fewer decorations this year, and it was okay. The Christmas Decorating Police did not knock on my door and demand that I put out more immediately. There was almost no baking, just a coffee cake. It was okay, in fact it was not important at all. Christmas came anyway. This was not a season of celebration for us, it was difficult. It was a time that I was able to sit quietly, reflect, and accept new reality.
There were hardly any presents, and it was okay. I don't feel deprived of material gifts. There were lots of prayers, hugs, phone calls, visits, emails, cards and people who saw us and just wanted to let us know that they were thinking about us. Guess that you could say that our gifts were not wrapped this year.
I learned that it is okay if I didn't get the shopping done, and it is okay if there is no baking. The decorating is not essential either. Christmas will come if I am happy or sad.
It is okay.
Admittedly the tree is down and the decorations put away and I am not sad about that choice. This year I was glad to put them away, and that is okay.